Up at 4:30, wind howling past the edges of things, Thea's head pillowed on my feet. I basked in the stillness, not sleeping, not waking for almost 2 hours before anxiety touched me. Gus to Parker for the day. Partner meeting at Marian's. Marian moving at the speed of codein. Doug arrived. We took him to the office. I worked till after 6. No yoga tonight. I needed a family fix.